When du’as (supplications) are answered, life halts and feels almost fragile. The solace it brings is a gentle [Divine] nudge: that your endured pains have never existed.
What an incomparable gift.
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In times of distress, I’ve learned that stability is a blessing. That soundness of mind provides you with a complete consciousness necessary to breathe easily. That contentment of the heart is what is needed to move forward.
After every accepted whisper, the only words that dare escape my lips spell of Your praise. I am consistently reminded of Your loving mercy.
You give in abundance; while my being drunkenly wanders in between states of ephemeral highs and lows.
At my lowest, exhaustion weighs heavy on my shoulders and makes room for its closest friend: hopelessness. Together, they wring my soul dry until I am unable to move.
I am always messing up.
In these moments, Your incandescent presence surrounds me with warmth. Words I often fail to remember faintly ring in assurance:
فاتقوا الله ما استطعتم
“So be mindful of God as best as you can…” (64:16).
This desire I have to seek perfection is due to my own soul being once in the very company of Perfection. However, perfection isn’t what You seek from me. It is an attribute only You encompass. What You value most is sincere and utmost striving and effort.
Despite my momentary departures, I now recognize that this cycle of fluctuation in heart sings of a love greater than anything else.
The Most Loving. Most Kind.
My Protecting Friend.
You teach me to never give up on myself or Your endless mercy.