Steadfastness Is Our Superpower

I often used to wonder why people lost faith until I realized how easy it was to do so.  It’s so easy to fall off the right path. It’s easy to stop doing the right things, indulge and follow our desires.

Having the freedom to choose between right or wrong is difficult. I honestly sometimes wish we didn’t have that privilege. At times, I think of it as a burden.

A little part of me envies the Angels because they earn God’s pleasure with ease. They were created to worship Him, and they never once disobey Him.

Having the freedom to choose between right or wrong is difficult. I honestly sometimes wish we didn’t have that privilege.

Thinking this way though, I often forget that the Angels root for us. Despite our differences in creation, they are in awe every time we go against our nafs (self) and rush to worship.

There was once a moment when the Angels showed hesitance about our very existence. They asked God—out of pure curiosity, if He was really going to make a Creation that causes destruction and sheds blood on Earth. God responded by saying, He knows what they do not when it comes to the disposition of mankind.

I often forget that the Angels root for us.

Us humans are infamous for our constant forgetfulness. Interestingly enough, the word for human in Arabic is ‘insan.’ And the word that it is derived from is ‘nasiya’, which literally means ‘to forget.’

Now, remember the response that God gave to His Angels?

He knows what they do not.

This is a testament that God believes in us, day in and day out—every moment we mess up, every moment we forget. He clearly sees our potential, even when we may not. His presence never wavers, and He always waits for us to come back to Him when we turn away.

The good that we can do despite the distractions around us, is proof to the Angels every time. I always have to remind myself that the one whose love for God is greater than the desires that tug at their heart will be given gifts beyond measure.

The good that we can do despite the distractions around us is proof to the Angels every time.

When I see those struggling, or even leave faith—or at my weakest moments when my mind wanders to things that displease Him, those are the times that I tell myself I desperately need to keep striving. Because in a world that causes us to forget, faith is irreplaceable.

Honing Your Spiritual Wisdom In Times of Despair

When you beg for Allah to guide you in a matter, you may not always perceive His response to be clear. Your understanding may be distorted by your desires, or your eyes may be blind to the truth that He has unveiled in front of you.

But Alhamdulillah (Praise be to God), He is ever so merciful as to send you clarity. In a way that calms your greedy hands, and softens your confused heart. You must learn to look carefully at His signs, and understand that He always wants the best for you. You must assure your heart that His will is not one to lose faith in.

See nothing but beauty and wisdom. Your affairs are in the hands of the One who is Most Loving and Most Wise.

Hysterical | Poem

my heart cries,
smiles
and laughs
all at the same time
it doesn’t make sense.

my mind chooses not to block out the thoughts
instead it overworks itself,
overthinking being the culprit of it crashing
dizziness overtaking me
every time.

my eyes, searching
for a place far more homelier than here
where the stars shine brighter
and the moon glistens a color I don’t see anywhere else
where I breathe flowers,
and exhale
the words you spoke.

where the excitement in your voice
rings in my ears,
I cherish every moment.

instead I’m far,
trapped
my focus not quite
where I need it to be at times.

always running
towards the seemingly impossible,
quite unsure of what is to
come.

scared
hopeless
here, I feel lonely.

I know the cause
—I can’t help it.

these nails have ripped jagged,
aching lines into my heart.
these scars have long past formed
to be fixed.

and
I don’t know
what
I am to do

with my crying
smiling, laughing
hysterical heart
or with being so
far.

Beauty in Hardship: Faith

A man spoke of the Syrian refugee crisis.
He wondered why so many of the refugees relied on God’s help.
Why they had faith.

His heart ached.
He angrily proclaimed that God wasn’t there.
That the Syrians were crying out to no one,
Praying to a God who didn’t care enough to relieve them of their pain.
They needed to open their eyes.
They were latching on to false hope.

I thought hard about what this man was saying and almost nodded, in agreement until I caught myself. I remembered that there’s a bigger picture to everything.

We may not know why things happen. We question things, hang onto the whys, ifs and buts, and claim feverishly that it isn’t fair. It’s  natural reaction. However, doing this will not benefit us nor will it change the situation.

Our minds may not be able to comprehend the things God does. But His names and attributes tell us that things happen for a reason, and despite how horrible a situation may seem, there is always a reason.

We can accept it, have a positive outlook and always remember that He always wants the best for each and every one of us. He knows what we do not. And if we understand that, it’ll be easier to let go and let God—do our part to help in any way we can, and then let Him handle our affairs in the best way possible.

I’ll admit that this is difficult to do but not impossible. Ultimately there is no one better to leave the matters of your life to than He who gave you life. Knowing the attributes of God and who He is will suffice you through your hardships. There is wisdom beyond our imagination in His work.

The Syrian people must already know this.

Heart of a Warrior | Poem

It doesn’t seem very real
until seeing someone
a person who I hold
dearly to my heart
a person who has
fought my fights and patched up
my four year old dresses

and when life gets its way
trying with all my might
to attack the stings
of built up emotion
she holds me tight
embracing me in her warmth
and softly caresses
the pinks of my cheeks
wiping the army of tears
that spill mercilessly
easily clearing the pathway to victory
and tells me over and over again
waan ku jecelahay” – “I love you”

seeing that beautiful,
powerful, amazing woman
who grew up with nothing
was gifted with everything
only to lose what
she has worked so hard for

the proof in her calloused,
rough hands
her face, lines carved into
the corners of her eyes and mouth
her once imprinted smile
admired by many
hated by some, faded
replaced with regret
replaced with sadness
replaced with everything
she didn’t deserve

but no matter how dark it may seem
the sleepless nights you go through
the nightmares itching themselves
into your slumber
the loneliness you feel
the nagging, self-destroying thoughts
eating at your mind
don’t

I know you have scars
that keep you reminiscing
about days when
loud voices would echo the walls
the stories you tell me where
you slept on cold, hard floors
bruises that remind you
of the evil in people
misplaced trust and misconstrued words
aimed at no one in particular
—in particular they were aimed at love
and destroyed your very being

nights where you would cry
until your eyes swelled shut
stress making itself home
on your shoulders
adding on to the burden you have to carry
making it heavier
than it already is

yet your love
has been unconditional
never unlearned
just sometimes misunderstood

I don’t know what gave you
the strength to keep going
you separated yourself
from things that didn’t fit
your course of living,
you opened your heart to now

you might’ve been broken
even shattered before
but now there’s only a small tear

sometimes it hurts you—yes
seemingly you feel that
your heart cannot bear the pain
it dares to fall out
and shatter once again
into a million pieces

but I’m here, we’re here
and that is the greatest blessing of all
no matter how many more heartbreaks
you’ve gone through
there are probably more
waiting at your door

you’ve taught me that
you come to realize
along the way
past the pain
that life is great
and love is not so bad


This is my first completed poem that I’ve written. It’s a little emotional and is probably all over the place, I’ll admit. Originally it was meant to be performed as a spoken word piece but something came up (I want to promise that it wasn’t stage fright—though I’d be lying).

give your heart to Allah

We’ve all suffered from − or will eventually be victim to heartbreak. Whether it’s from our family, once-believed lover, studies, careers, or friends. I’ve heard multiple advises from others that heartbreak occurs due to the fact that we have kept those things a little too close to home: our heart. When those things wrap themselves and tie a knot around our hearts; only to disappoint and hurt us, it destroys us. We become a different person after that occurs. Sadness overtakes us and we are unable to return back to the way we once were, either until after a while of recovering, or sometimes never.

I want to share an example that many of us have probably heard of. When someone throws a plate on the ground and the plate breaks into pieces, you could pick up the pieces, arrange them, and try to glue them back together. But the fact of the matter is that it will never be the same. The person has already done enough damage to the plate that the cracks will still be there. This is similar to what heartbreak does to us. It leaves scars.

Our hearts are fragile, and are prone to being damaged. Our hearts are also capable of experiencing beautiful feelings [such as love and being at peace]. The Prophet ﷺ stated in a hadith:

“…There lies within the body a piece of flesh. If it is sound, the whole body is sound; and if it is corrupted, the whole body is corrupted. Verily this piece is the heart” [Bukhari & Muslim].

Allah (swt) also states in the Qur’an:

“O you who believe! take care of your souls; he who errs cannot hurt you when you are on the right way; to Allah is your return, of all (of you), so He will inform you of what you did.” [5:105]

As crazy as it sounds, I believe heartbreak is something that can be prevented. Protect yourself before you lose yourself over something so transient. That doesn’t mean don’t enjoy the blessings Allah has gifted you with. Love is something He has instilled within all of us. But take hold the love of your school, career, family, and relationships in your hands. Never in your heart, because that is when heartbreak occurs. If you keep what you love in your hands, if for some reason it leaves or isn’t part of your life anymore it’ll hurt, but it won’t shatter your whole being because you held them in your hands: a place where you could easily let go.

Allah might put something or someone in your path to test you. We should be careful before letting anything in easily without inspection and full understanding that it is part of the temporary Dunya. The feeling of love is not forbidden, but something you love so much can leave in a split second. Understanding that these things are temporary will make it easier. The ache that comes with heartbreak is just as temporary as the temporary world that caused it. We must understand that.

The arabic word for love “muhabbah”, comes from the root letters “hubb”, which means seed. This seed has been planted in all of our hearts and it’s up to us to nourish and water that seed so it grows into the type of love that we were created for, i.e. love for Allah (swt).

Learn to give your heart to Allah, and to just have eyes for the blessings He gives you. The only love you should keep in your heart is the love of Allah. He’ll never leave, only wants good for you, and will never disappoint. If you’re sincere, that love will manifest within you and become a light in your life. You’ll then experience ultimate happiness. Always, always, always ask Allah for His Love and the Love of those who Love Him, and the Love of every action that brings you closer to His Love.